Still Being Random

I finally did it!

I finally went and got that blasted monodrama out of the way! After sitting on for a little more than two months.

Even last night, I was tempted to chicken out. The feeling became worst after I found out that I was going to be evaluated by the most veteran of Toastmasters in our Club. He is revered even by other clubs and everyone knows him to be a good speaker. He's won awards upon awards for speaking. And I know he's done this manual before. So, to say I was freaking out is an understatement.

At the same time, I realised that if I didn't do it during this meeting, then I'd most likely will never get it done. So I grabbed the bull by the horns and went up there and did the presentation.

It didn't turn out as well as I wanted it to but it didn't turn out too badly either. Apparently, I played it well enough to entertain everyone.

Dunstan said it's the hardest project in the manual, which is one of the hardest manuals among the advanced manuals. It was the Interpretive Reading manual. And Victor was impressed because I wrote it myself. He says others have just pulled a monologue off the Net and read that.

So, yes, I finally got it out of the way. And now I can progress to the next projects. I can either do a Roast or a Play. The Roast is only about 5 minutes and the Play is between 10 to 15 mminutes. Roasting's easier.

Most people are afraid of public speaking. There is a difference between talking about nothing to whole bunch of strangers and talking with a purpose to a whole bunch of strangers.

Talking to strangers does not bother me. What does bother me is the act of performing. Even if I can sing, the moment I have to sing in public, my voice actually croaks. Just as I'll dance but if you pay me any attention while I dance, I'll dance wrong. Clubbing is different. Any idiot can go clubbing. In fact, I have seen some idiots dancing at clubs.

So tonight, I have to do two things. One, I actually have to be a dessert princess who has fallen in love with a man who can't choose between two women. So much so that the women went to war over him. It's something I'll personally never do but for the sake of my speech project, I'll do it.

The other thing I need to do is lead a few people who have never bellydanced in a belly dancing routine. Aaarrggh! If I wasn't too tired to scream and fret about it, I would.

So I'm nervous as hell and the only thing that keeps me calm now is the fact that nobody will know I've done anything wrong unless I tell them. Haha! The first rule of public speaking - Nobody knows you've made a mistake unless you tell them.

And tonight, I ain't telling.