Still Being Random

I am hooked on a new TV show. It's called The Unit.

Simply put, it's about an elite top secret military based on a book Inside Delta Force written by Eric L. Haney. That's the same guy who was the technical advisor for the movie Spartan. So if you liked that movie, I probably don't have to say much more to get you going.

However, The Unit is a very good show. It has action and all the tension every average guy enjoys. And if you're not the average guy, there are some hot men in the show too. I had to mention that because every girl I recommended the show to has asked about that. Me, I watched it and got hooked because I love the plot.

It's about the men who go out and risk their lives for their country yet get no acknowledgement for it. It's particularly sickening when they do all that and they go home to other men or women making fun of them being 'military clerks'. What they do is so top-secret that that is the cover they are all given.

The show also goes into the lives of these men's wives. Namely, the secrets they have to resist asking about and the secrets they themselves keep. I just love how they keep their husbands' secret even at the expense of their own well-being. They sacrifice unquestioningly. And they allow their husbands to keep their pride, even without being asked. It's just common sense. When you love someone enough, you show it by helping them keep their pride. What have you got to prove in shredding a guy's pride in public? Oh, these women show their own strengths in many other ways.

Deep down, I want to be like these wives. I have always believed that what happens between a husband and wife should be kept between them only. And what happens between a guy and his job or his personal life should be kept with him. One quote from the show - "There's my married life and my personal life." I thought it was hilarious.

There are some scenes where the newbie (played by Scott Foley) and his wife (played by Audrey Marie Anderson) are still getting used to the Unit way of life. And his wife (Kim) keeps asking what it is he does and where his missions are. It was so frustrating. Kinda potrays how some women just don't know when to stop asking or shut up! Until, of course, she was told how what she knows could get her husband killed so she was better off not knowing.

The commanding officer is Colonel Tom Ryan (played by Robert Patrick) and the team leader is Jonas Blane (played by Dennis Haysbert). Jonas's wife is Molly Blane (played by Regina Taylor). I want to be Molly. Especially Season 1 Molly. She's so in control and is able to get things moving with hardly any effort. I'm halfway to being like her but I sometimes gets flustered by stupid things or people I encounter along the way.

The show is now in its third season. Shook and I have watched the first two. I got Nuril hooked onto it too. I told her the basic storyline and she was curious enough to try it. Then she declared Scott Foley as hawt and that was that. So if a 14 year-old likes it, I wonder why adults cannot. Then again, some adults I know don't like these kind of shows. Probably too heavy for their mental capabilities.

While watching this show, I understood a lot of the things my father has been teaching me all these years. One is his obsession with family meals and all that. I guess if you've fought in a war, you tend to treasure family and the time you spent with them. The other is when he says a man's handphone is his personal property. Sometimes there are things there which his wife need not know of. In this day and age, a man's privacy is pretty limited. So what does he have left if not his handphone? I guess that's why I always ask Shook if I can answer his phone for him or even read any incoming messages. What I don't know, I cannot tell about. Another thing I realised is that a hysterical and/or self-centred female can get very annoying and sickening. There is one character in the show. She's only happy when her guy got lots of money for her to spend. The moment he got a problem, she bailed out on him. Bitch!

The show is really worth it. I'm now trying to decide whether I want to start downloading Season 3 or wait for the DVD to come out. With this writers' strike in Hollywood, who knows what will happen next. But I heartily recommend the first two seasons especially if you're into military no-nonsense drama.

I have a great plot for a story. It came to me the way many strong plots come to me. Through my emotions. It's the same as when I can only write my best poems when I'm depressed or very angry.

So a plot came to me. When I write it out in a story (and I will regardless of how long it'll take), it will project all the anger and frustration and hatred into one relatively short story. It will be brutal and definitely not for children.

My best stories never have a feel-good feeling. Unless that feeling is revenge.

I don''t write romance or paranormal stories. My target audience is never children or idealists. I aim for the all-too-human in all of us, our anger, our hatred, our frustrations and our coldness. I can write about organised crime because when I am angry. I can carry out whatever I set out to do with a coldheartedness that will chill the polar bears. (And I love polar bears. Especially armoured ones)

The reason I can go without showing emotions is because I channel it into the stories. I don't yell and scream and get hysterical because I plot and curse. And I really mean curse in every sense of that word. For everyone who has wronged me, I have cursed that they get everything they deserve back in kind. Eventually, somehow, somewhere, some time, they will get it.

As for my story. It's just one of my curses written in prose.

Not for the faint-hearted. There will be blood spilt and lives shattered.

Just the way I love my revenge.

I've been in KL for 4 days and I'm just soaking in the sun. It's not so hot that I'm miserable but it's hot enough that I can enjoy it. However, in a few more days, I get to go home to a wet Kuching.

Oh, while we were here, my sister at home called to let us know that our cat, Mac, died on Monday. He had been missing for awhile and she found him under my car. Poor Mac. He had kidney problems and he had been losing a lot of weight. I was worried about him but I prefer it this way anyway. He was in pain and miserable. I'm not happy he's dead but I'm glad he's no longer suffering.

Right now, Nuril and I are watching The Birdcage on Vision Four. I loved the movie the first time I watched it and I'm enjoying it still. I enjoy how they make fun of people who can't seem to accept homosexuality.

Oh, a random thought again. I just enjoy KL. I would love to have the time to just sit somewhere and watch people go by. I tell you. KL is rich with story fodder. The people you can write about and the things they do. The people you could watch and try to come up with what they would do when they get home or what they do normally.

One thing Nuril and I noticed the past few days is how young couples here walk around. Some are very obvious - the guy would have his arm around the girl's neck, almost strangling her or the girl would grip the guy's hand as if she was afraid he would run away. Then again, this is KL. Girls are known for being like piranhas - young girls going after rich men who might or might not be twice their age, just as long as they are rich and can buy them lots of expensive stuff.

Today, at KLCC, we saw a guy literally hugging his girlfriend from behind and they walked around that way. Imagine walking around as if you're stuck at the hips! The stories I could write about them.

And another thing that occurred to me while I was on the monorail. Snatch thieves should not be jailed or fined. I think they should be tortured. My idea of torture is that their spines should be broken so that not only can they not walk anymore after that, they also cannot procreate and pass on their bad genes.

Aren't I evil? I am evil to those who deserve it. And I like myself this way.