Still Being Random

I spent the entire weekend going up to the airport and coming back down again. It was exhausting. I have parents who go up and down the plane the same way us regular mortals go in and out of our cars! It's not frustrating or anything. It's just tiring for the rest of us who need to keep up with them. And we're half their age!

I wanted to sit in on an RPG game last night but I was so tired from work that I even fell asleep in the car when I was accompanying my mom to the doctor. So I figured there was no way I'm driving anywhere on my own. Tonight, I might join them because I need the Game Master's help for school.

Today, I opened a can of worms. Much to my delight, and chagrin, my students grabbed the assignment and are running with it! What do I mean? Well, our next chapter in the lesson is all about castles. So I divided them into 2 groups. Each group has a 'Lord'. His job now is to design his castle, expand his military and assign duties to his 'people'. The thing is they got so enthusiastic about it that I now need to throw in some rules and regulations. So I need to limit their growth possibilities. In other words, I've managed to create the first pen-and-paper RPG group for my school! So I'm going to take a page out of Age of Empires and throw it at them!

I may have also mentioned that after one month of planning, they will attack each other on a turn basis. I forgot the exact term for that. So I now need to assign numbers just like RPG. But without dice. At least, I hope I can avoid using dice.

Dang! I need an in-house Game Master soon!

What have I done?!

Haha!! But it's fun to see them wheeling and dealing. Boys who normally use rough words and fists now have to negotiate and persuade. It's funny.

I had some other news to share but I'll keep it for later.

Blame it on my love for trucks, or semis, as the Americans call it.

But I want this dock. It's so cool!

I'm at work and supposed to be marking my students' assignments. Instead, what am I doing?

Blogging!

I feel so guilty. But you know what they say about guilt....Guilty pleasures and all those lovely things. Haha!

Actually, I just realised that I am allowed to hook up to the wireless network. So I hooked up and went nuts!

I shall now upload the one picture I've been talking about uploading. Then, if I have time, I'll change my template.

For now, heeeeere's Yodie!!!



Narrator's voice: Wearing her dream collar, Yodie is a lady who loves the glamourous life and hopes to get her very own sleeping pad soon. Yet, she doesn't begrudge the fact that she has to sleep with her 'man', her god! She is grateful to her servants and occasionally, presents them with her favourite hunt. The cost of the odd lizard or two doesn't worry her. She knows giving is better than receiving. Yodies loves the outdoors; wet or dry. She enjoys the fact that she has a personalised menu in her home. Once in a while, she will deign to be nice to the odd stranger or so. But she guards her own well and will not think twice to hiss at those with less than honourable intentions.

I came home from work today to see Astro Max decoders everywhere. There was one downstairs in our dining room, one more in the family living room and another in my parents' bedroom. Personally, I don't think it's anything to scream about because I rarely even know what's going on on Astro anyway. Until I do come across a show I just cannot live without, then maybe I'll find the Astro Max worth it. Until then, I'll watch repeats or wait for someone to tell me what I missed. Or download!

I was really sick over the weekend. I got caught in the heavy rain on Friday night and was walking around with wet feet and wearing wet clothes. I would have showered at Shook's place if I even thought to bother. But by the time we finished dinner and Rin came and sat with us, I was already feeling too drowsy and warm to make much of an effort. I was already sneezing all day that day and I was feverish by the time Shook sent me home that night. So by Saturday morning, I was burning up and feeling generally miserable. Luckily, I had some leftover antibiotics and fever medication. I did insist on going out for dinner that night with my parents but I actually fell asleep on one of the sofas in the hotel waiting area.

The only good thing about the weekend bout of fever was that I lost my appetite. I went without food all day Monday and Tuesday. And when I say I went without food, I really mean it. I ate nothing all day. I know some people's idea of not eating all day means they didn't eat a full plate of rice with all the trimmings. I only drank. Until Shook took me to buy kebabs last night. And I had one of the kebabs for lunch today. So appetite gone but thirst up the wazoo.

And now, I'm waiting to get paid so that I could go have salad at Tao. Hee! Hee!

Oh, I was surfing the web aimlessly tonight when I came across an article which said : "Most people think that we use protein to build strong muscles. The truth is that we use Amino acids to create the proteins we need to build strong muscles and every other part of the body. Our bodies have to break down the protein that we consume into its individual amino acids before we can use it. This process is supposed to happen in the digestive system. It has a hard time converting deranged protein into usable amino acids.The best sources for amino acids, to build strong bodies, are vegetables and fruits. The lowly lettuce salad has more usable protein in the form of amino acids than a stake. Because most plant foods have the protein in the form we need the body has less work to do to digest the food."

It's fascinating. I always knew meat was dangerous because it gives people gout. But I also thought it helped give energy. Then I see that vegetables do it just as well. Thanks goodness I'm an omnivore! And then there's this. And the cause.

The things I read to impress my students...haha!

In other bits of my life, I am still car-less. Apparently, I will be until this coming weekend...I hope. If I'm still car-less next week, I think my father will start getting edgy. I'm going out for dinner this Saturday night. Shook's been invited along. It's my family's usual birthday dinner. We can't have it exactly on the 21st because my parents have been invited to Jennifer Jabu's wedding reception.

Oh, I absolutely love Shook's car's new midnight blue colour. My car will be platinum silver with blue dust. Can't wait to see it!

Anyway, I think it's time I went to bed. Tomorrow is another long day for me.

My school just bought the Nikon D40. I've been playing with it because, I'm the only one of three people allowed to use it. And at this moment, I'm the only one who has the time and interest to make use of it.

It is a beautiful camera. It's one of those cameras that make you want to take up photography as a hobby because no matter how you point the dang thing, the picture still comes out beautiful. So when you add just a little more thought and care into what you're shooting the result is insane.

The other day, I took a shot of the school corridor and the result was creepy yet fascinating. I will try to put the photo up tomorrow once I transfer it out of my laptop.

But, heck, I love that camera. If anyone wants to know what I really, really want for my birthday/wedding gift/Christmas present this year, this camera would be it!

First I was getting impatient with Blogger for not letting me log in through my site. Then just as I was about to give up and concentrate on Supernatural, the window suddenly pops up to show me that I'm in my Blogger dashboard.

Which is the exact same moment, the rain fell and my modem started blinking.

Sometimes, I just want to give up and say 'You win!'.

...But I will be back because I'm stubborn that way.

One way or another, I will blog today.

Have you seen the new Fantastic Four movie trailer yet? The Silver Surfer looks so cool! I've always been fascinated by him but I was also always distracted by Superman and Wonder Woman.

I wanted to upload some pictures of Yodie but I suddenly remembered that I need to resize them first. Maybe I'll do that later in the day.

Oh, did anyone catch the news the other night about this family of thieves and robbers? I find this very interesting. It piques my interest not because it's crime-related but because it has all the makings of a fascinating movie. It's like the Malaysian version of the Kelly gang or the James brothers. What is actually sad is that everyone is so busy writing the great Malaysian novel (as opposed to the great American novel) or making the great Malaysian sopa opera that they don't notice bits of news like this. Don't even mention D.Y. to me because I still believe he is a racist and that his movies are not worth any acclaim. He's like the Ed Woods of Malaysia...only worst. I can't even begin to tell how much I dislike him.

There was a list of movies I wanted to write here that I am so looking forward to this year. There's the Transformers movie, Shrek 3, The Dark Knight and a few more. I'll put up links when I find the links again.

It's late and parents are home. This means breakfast in the morning. So I'm off to bed.

Oh, Shook was grumpy because he's sick. The poor baby!

Other than being on an emotional rollercoaster this week, I've been driven nuts by the internet. I can access the webpages but some of them come out all weird. And I don't think they're even considered heavy graphics page. Pages like the blogger sign-in page and the scrape torrent page.

Oh, anyway. I went to my ex-boss's other house last night. It's the same house my co-ordinator is living in. He's either renting it from her or just living there, I'm not sure. However, he just got back from Australia and the one thing I like about going there for anything is that I get lots of alcohol. Haha! He brings back the liqueur I like and he had new stock of Absolute vodka and brandy (can't remember which brand. Could be Jack Daniels). So I never got the same drink twice last night. As soon as I got there, I was handed a lychee mix drink. As soon as I was done, which wasn't too long later, I got a pina colada. Then it was a margarita. Then I got a brandy coke mix. At this point, we were laughing and joking around. Occasionally, we talked about the students and our first three days back at work. Most of the time, we just picked on each other. Suffice to say that when I drove home at midnight, I was more tipsy that my two colleagues. I had to send them home so I was driving very carefully.

I fell asleep as soon as I got home because I had to wake up at 6 today to send my parents to the airport. Yeah, they go up and down planes the way some people use the bus! After that, I came back to sleep again.

Somewhere in there, I dreamt that Shook was angry with me. I have no idea why. So when I called him and he sounded pissy, guess who got too scared to push? Also, I don't know why he's pissy. I suppose I should know since I am supposed to be psychic and all.

Oh, do you know that there is a stall at Majang Jaya that sells doughnuts made out of char koi dough? It's pretty good because it's covered in castor sugar and powdered milk mix. Well, either it was really very good or I was hungrier than I thought when my sisters bought it for me. I think I'll consider getting more before going to see Shook later. Might as well face him rather than sit here and worry about it!

Anyway, I had a good end to an extremely tiring week. I've paid my sleep debt. And I still have no car!! I can borrow my sister's but it's not my car!! Sun, shine brighter and longer, please!

I think sometimes people have this inability to say 'thank you' or to even think beyond themselves alone. I understand when people can't say 'please' or ask for help. I've had my proud moments when I've refused to ask for help even when I'm struggling. Come to think of it, if I get insulted everytime I ask for help, I suppose it explains why I don't ask for help.

Anyway, getting back to the original topic. I don't understand what's so difficult about saying 'thank you' or thinking about what someone else wants rather than what only you want. It's like buying someone a present. You'd like to buy them something they might want rather than just for the sake of it. I enjoy buying my friends little things. Usually, when I see those things and I think of them, I buy them the things. But if they're going to complain about being bought things they don't want or things that mean nothing to them, I suppose it's logical for me to be very reluctant to buy them anything anymore. It's especially worst when I ask them whether they'll like it and the reply I get is 'It's just a thing. Who cares what it looks like.'

Well, the thing is I care. I like buying things for people I care for. But if they don't care enough then it makes me wonder 'Why bother?'

I'm one of those people who was brought up to be optimistic. To do good things so that good things will come to me. I still practise this. So far, nothing very bad has happened to me. I believe this is because I don't wish ill on anyone. Even when people eat my food despite me telling them it's my only meal of the day and they finish the food, I keep quiet. If they want to be thoughtless, it's their problem. I'll just go find more food. I can afford it.

The thing is when Eric used to talk about karma, I was the only one who agreed with him. I can because it's happened to me and to my family so many times. We never want for anything in my house because my father believes in sharing. Even when I got fired from my last school I was happy because I've been trying to figure out how to tell my last school's principal I was leaving because I got a better job offer. Besides, she was a terrible boss and I was happy to leave anyway. I just needed a way to leave while still being able to keep my three months' pay. But, I got fired so I managed to keep the money and still got a job the following month.

And people are forever sending us food because my father is forever giving other people food. He helps them sometimes too much.

The thing is I don't like being made to feel like a fool or a dumbass when I know I'm not. I like being nice and I like being kind. But not when I'm taken advantage of. I will share the food if they will share the cost. If you ask me for something, I'd not likely say no. But please, return the favour or try to consider my feelings for it. Don't make me feel bad for being nice.

I also know that I am fairly intelligent. I just don't like to brag because I know people who brag or show-off will one day find themselves with their feet in their mouths. I listen because I like to learn. I ask when I don't know. If I know I wouldn't ask. I say something when I have something to say. I try not to repeat myself because I don't want to bore myself by hearing my own voice all the time. I enjoy laughing with friends who don't take themselves too seriously or think only they are right.

I have a job I enjoy. (I know someone who changed jobs so many times that I'm not sure if any company wants to employ her anymore. Sad end for a lawyer.)

I love my family. (Some of them annoy me but I can't pick my relatives. I can hate them but I can't disown them.)

I love spending time with my parents. Unlike a lot of people I know, I actually love being with my parents. They support me and they are the stability I need in my life. They taught me how to make right decisions and to stand by my decisions and to learn from my mistakes.

I love who I am. I have a job. I have two arms, two legs, two eyes, a nose, a mouth, two ears, a brain and I'm better off than others who don't have those same things. My car really is mine. It has my name on it. I have debts I'm slowly paying off. I don't give crappy advice. I listen and analyse before I do give advice. I feel bad for my friends who have made the wrong decisions but I respect their need to stand by their decisions. I wish I could help them but I understand their need to not want help.

Despite all this, I don't understand why people are so mean to me and so thoughtless. I hope they know that they've hurt me yet I wonder why they do it anyway.

A careless word leaves a scar that is eternal. It makes people wary and shy. To some, this wariness shows stupidity. To me, it just holds true that once bitten does indeed make you twice shy.

The template was changed again for two reasons. One, it's a new year and two, it's my birthday month, or birth month, whichever way you want to see it. The template's still a bit off somehow but I've not been working on it really hard. Plus the internet connection is still a little unstable that I just quickly check my emails then log off to be safe.

I was out at MoJo with Gette tonight. She introduced me to two of her friends, Maggie and Brenda. They are two hilarious ladies, I tell ya. I had a great time with them. It's been awhile since I had a great time with anyone. We talked about almost everything under the sun. In tonight's case, it was everything under the chaotic looking lamp shades. And best of all, none of us were afraid to admit that yes, we listen to the soundtrack of High School Musical and we know the words and yes, we get scared by certain horror movies and no, we refuse to read reviews before we watch a movie. Oh, and also, yes, for the right price, I'll take the humpalot. Incidentally, that last line was a quote from Gette.

Tonight was a very good girls' night out. Best part is we didn't even talk about guys. Brad Pitt, Clive Owen and Craig Daniel don't count!

I miss girls' nights out. And I miss having my opinions respected and listened to instead of being shot down point blank or even before I utter them. Tonight, I was not shy to admit that I have no idea what that actor's name is or where he last acted in or who directed that movie or even that I think Keanu Reeves not only looks better than Jay Chou, he acts better too.

I had fun tonight. So I was very glad I decided to go with Gette to MoJo.

P.S.: I still can't believe I dreamt about Craig Daniel as Shook as James Bond. Haha!